Tuesday, October 28, 2014

I know God is in control....BUT

I apologize if this post is somewhat unorganized.  This is just me talking through my very raw emotions.
I mentioned in my post yesterday about the incident with my son.   This has been such a difficult week.  I know God is in control, honestly I do.  This world is full of evil.  I get that!  But why does that evil have to knock at our door time and time again. 

God tells us in Hebrews 13:6 that He is our helper and we should not fear what man can do to us.  I read that and know exactly what it means.  But... everyday for the past week all I have is fear building up inside of me. 

I know God is always with us.  But...all I want to do is scream!  I am tired of holding it all together because that is what I should do.  What I want to do is become emotional, cry, scream and yell.  Then today I read Psalm 7:11, "God is a just judge, And God is angry with the wicked everyday."

I know I need to give this all to God.  But...all I want to do is take matters into my own hands.  Then I read Psalm 18:30, "As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the Lord is proven; His shield to all who trust in Him." 

Thank you for listening.  I'm going to go find something to do so I can get my mind off of things.  What Scripture do you read when you are seeking comfort?


Faye Henry said...
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Mary said...

Psalms 46 & 91 are very good, Jenn. Prayerful meditation on 91, got me through a very rough patch in 2011, I was truly afraid. A dear friend gave me a paperback that contained daily meditations on Psalm 91, and it was such a solace to me... Something else that helped me, as a touch stone of sorts, was putting meaningful scriptual verses up where I'd see them throughout the day, like on the fridge, on a post-it on my computer moniter, etc.. to keep me focused through out the day. Here's one I found helpful for me: Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."

And remember as St Paul wrote, "for we are God's fellow workers" in 1 Corinthians 3:9 we work in a partnership with God, as Christians, not because He needs us, but because He wants us to share in His work. Be there for your son, meet with your pastor/minister, don't struggle alone with your worries.

I'll keep you all in my prayers.

Gentle Joy said...

I am so sorry for the pain you are going through and I hope that things have ease up since you wrote this a few days ago. One of my favorite verses is Isaiah 41:10 "Fear thou not, for I am with thee; be not dismayed, for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee, yea, I will help thee, yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." May God encourage you today.

Sandra said...

Oh my friend, I am so sorry for everything that you are going through now, have gone through and will no doubt go through again. You know I always remind myself that when we are closest to the Lord is when we are tested over and over again. You know the enemy can't stand for us to be under God's protection.

Hang in there, you and Matt are so strong in your faith and can fight anything that comes your way.