Saturday, August 17, 2013
When your child breaks your heart.
When things like this happen you cannot help but blame yourself and your parenting. Where did I go wrong? Because of this our daughter has completely changed. We found out things about this boy that we do not like one bit. It will not drag it out here. But these are things that we cannot forget. We have forgiven but will never forget. The main thing is that he is unsaved. THAT is a major thing. So instead of our daughter seeing that as a bad thing she has chosen to walk away from everything she said she believed in. Why? Because of this guy.
I have spent more time on my knees over this then any other time in my life. The only place I can turn is to God. James 1:5 says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him." I feel I have no wisdom what so ever when it comes to this problem.
So what is a mother to do? Proverbs 22:6 tells us, "Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it." We have trained up Katrina in the ways of the Lord. She is now at the age she needs to make the choice to walk away or to follow God. She has chosen to walk away. If she were to die today I have no idea at all if she would be in heaven. That tears me all up inside. It's almost like a grieving process. I have so many moments of tears. That is followed by anger!
I am really trying hard not to let the bitterness set in. But being verbally abused by your daughter and her "guy" really wears you down. I'm really at a loss as to how to handle this. Any wisdom out there from my readers would be greatly appreciated. This has been the worst year ever!
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."