Today was a very difficult day. It was a day of lashing out, disobedience, nasty words and just plain hurtful. This all came about because someone didn't get their way. It snowballed from that point and just seemed to get worse. I ended up in tears. I also ended up second guessing our decision to be foster parents. I mean, if I can't "handle" my own child how on earth am I going to help children that come into our home in need of direction and love. But you know what....God never lets us stray too far off of His path. I was praying all afternoon for God to give me peace yet again about foster care. Then the mail came. I could not believe how fast God answered my prayers. We got the current issue of Focus on the Family's Thriving Family. One of the cover stories was about adoption! Ok God I get the point. So I continue on into the magazine and I come across the article about Toby Mac and his family. He is also an adoptive parent. Sure God I said, but I'm still questioning our ability to foster children. Then I come to the section written by Jim Daly, President of Focus on the Family. It's all about foster care. The title is "Foster Care: A Step of Faith". I read this, "If God leads us somewhere, He equips us for that journey." God is equipping us to care for these children. Through the good and bad. He is toughing us up. Giving us a thick skin. So here we are Lord, ready to serve You in any fashion. Yes that includes foster care.
I know there will be many more days of grief coming our way. I know there will be days of second guessing ourselves. But one thing is for sure, we are doing what God has called us to do. When my children disobey me and lash out, it really helps me understand how God feels when I do that to Him. The good times are going to out weigh the bad. I have no doubt about that.